The man who jumped from a roof

I fell
Like a leaf in winter,
Slowly....yet surely,
On the barren earth,
With pain in my heart,
And tear in my soul.

How many times I have dreamt of this day,
This fated day,
I have thought of kissing the earth on touching it,
Of spreading my arms far,
Feeling the ruggedness of soil,
Of leaving a teardrop in the sand,
Of embracing the dust....
But today,
As I float with the wind,
Slowly towards my destiny,
I am afraid,
Afraid of death.

I feel like remembering the day,
When I was a child;
Lying cozily on my mother's lap,
When I was frightened by the spider
Climbing up the wall.
I killed it with a slap of shoe,
Eight legs smashed to the wall,
With all his memories, dreams and desires
Turning into a grey lump of skin.
I remember the time,
I went to the fair,
And was lightened up by a candyfloss seller.
I bought one
Relished it
And threw away the stick
Never knowing I won't be having one ever after.
I remember the dance I had with you
To a Elvis Presley song
Burning with desire,
Thinking of spending the entire life with you....
Those are past,
They will always haunt you
And never return to your laps.

Now, I get the smell of asphalt,
I know am close to the ground,
May be just a few moments to go...
I will lie on the ground,
Existing no more than the spider I had killed.
I close my eyes,
Tightly
And hope for an angel to appear,
And save me
Rescue me
Take me back to the dance
I had with you....
I breath deep,
I feel my heart still running fast,
My brain still trying to think,
My hands looking for support...
I exist still,
As yet the soul has not left the cage..
But how long????
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